this is really sad regardless of your religion.
Get at me haters with your name, cuz my formspring looks like a forum full of pussies right now http://formspring.me/ayyitskevin
FML. Everything this school year, nothings right. everything just got worse. everything i wished for and worked ma ass for is nothin. everyday is the same shit, and everyday is dejavu of the worst crap to deal wit ever. hate hearing shit from my mom about my life and everythin and nothin changes. every thing the fckng same even after all the hard ass work i put through, nothings right. i rather she give up on me, i cant do nothin right.
Ahhhh New year, 2010. =]
I just made a tumblr today for fun, anyone interested in my 2009 and my future can read this below.
2009 was just ok. I got the 4.0 both semesters in eigth grade, which doesnt seem important anymore. David Kim became one of my close friends and we did a lot of shit in school getting into some trouble but a whole shit load of laughs.
James got me into running eigth grade track and I sucked but he brought me to running. Summertime was aitee, just studying at the library and hittin up places. Summer school was aitee w kg and summer league sucked losing every game, bt basketball was still fun and my love. XC retreat was freakin fun, and one of the best experiences of my life opening me up to the love of running.
Hittin 9th grade, things changed. I signed up the hardest classes that a freshman could take. Algebra II/trig, Bio honors, MUN, spanish II h. I signed up for three sports: cross country, basketball, and track.
Cross country started off right away, and the start of the season was jst ok running 21:04 for the first race. But the midst of the season, I didn’t perform well as I couldn’t improve my time through many races. Part of it was my sickness but I realized that I could of ran faster if I had stayed more dedicated. I became lazy and complacent while I focused on fall league basketball to do ma best in keeping coach washington happy.
Towards the end of season with two meets left, I had felt my own personal pressure to beat my original time. My goal to at least break 20 fell short by twelve seconds. I have no excuses but myself although this meet I felt a pain I never felt before in my shins. The last meet I had determination to break 20 even though it was a harder course….I ran well in the beginning with the one and a half mile at 9:12 but I fell short to 20:30 eventually with the same pain. but no excuses. So I ran my XC season with dissapointment.
I quit basketball because of how time consuming it was and because I didn’t get any playing time. The coach was messed to me and my grades suffered because of it. I quit right before 2nd q started because it wasn’t worth it. This was my biggest dissapointment of the year, because my whole life I had dreams in this sport but I felt I had to. I mean, I dont think the coach needs me if Ima go to a basketball tournament and not play a single minute regardless of whether I went to a saturday practice. Quitting helped me though realize things, and how the basketball team was a jerk talkin shit behind ma back like I wouldnt know, most of them cocky of themselves.
Church has also gotten better too with this year, as I have met a lot more people that are cool and better looking in my grade with DT and retreat.
My true friends are David, James, KG and they still been good. I did a lot of shit with each guy, and as a group now we all jerk and gettin it off at school. hahaha. These guys are the ones I talk with and the ones I trust even when we all talk shit bout one another but its a joke inside (until thejoke goes too far!)haha
In 2010, I have a lot of expectations and goals. I hope that I can change myself as people say I am cocky, a wannabe and that I can be more nicer and be better at time managing. I hope that I can have a better relationship with my fam, and maintain good friendships. I hope I can save my grades this semester to a 3.83, and redeem myself the next semester. I hope that I can do all my duties to a best and keep ma focus. I hope that this year I will run my track season well and come close to five minute flat in the mile.
And it would be good to meet more people, maybe find the right gf this year? hahaha :)